My beautiful model, best friend,painting companion and gentlest of giants fell asleep in my arms for the very last time this afternoon. My heart is breaking even though I knew each extra day with him has been a blessing for so long. And right now I can hardly see the screen for tears.
In a typical Taffy style of always putting me first he waited until all my workshops were over before he finally gave in and lost his fight. He has been so very brave and absolutely determined not to leave us. His spirit has been so strong but today saw a change. On the way home from his short morning walk he lay down unable to get up. I sat with him until he regained his breath but a second spell of laying down indicated he was very weak from his aneamia. He had just been in a field sat looking around him enjoying nature in sunshine. But now he was home and even weaker.
I lay down beside him with his huge gentle head in my arms, stroking him and talking to him as he shared his last precious moments with me. I found myself burying my face in his soft fur and absorbing every detail knowing I was about to lose him. My heart was torn into a million pieces as I whispered favourite loving endearments which I knew for the last time.
Saying goodbye to someone you love is so very painful
I will miss him nudging my arm when he thinks I have been painting or ignoring him for too long. I will even miss his incredibly noisy snoring and the soft noise of the thump of his tail when he dreams in his sleep.
Rest with angels sweet Taffy
I love and miss you
To me you were the sweetest friend who was always at my side
Guarding me, protecting me, watching over me with pride
You loved me without question
You gave endless love through many years
And now its time to say goodbye I cannot do so without tears
I thank you for the moments so special one by one
Dearest Sweetest Taffy